You killed my blessings!

No matter how amazing a spiritual event was, Satan and the Self is constantly working to kill it all. The thief only comes to steal, KILL and destroy.

It could be one misunderstanding, one phone call, one look, one interpretation of something or just another good ol fashion demand from your heart, “I want what I want!!” or “Don’t give me what I don’t want!!”

Revivals, Devotion times, prayer mtgs, holy encounters are very much needed. I need them. But the BIGGER question is, will I keep at it?

Will I use those means as a launching pad for more of JESUS?

Will I be addicted to worshiping Jesus?

Will I continue pouring what is in my heart to God?

Will I keep believing that Jesus should be my only desire?

Will I go back to my sinful “comforts” or CHANGE?

I sit here contemplating in the slow glow of a great weekend of spiritual fire. The BKs are all around me. BK as in Blessing Killers. Just like the cube of God’s future presence, all around me are sprinkles of water to kill the fire. Here and there. Slowly.

I face the greatest battle not in the huddled barracks where the General gives out the weapons and ammunition. The Battle is now GOING OUT. Have I really learned well? Did the Revival kick me in the right direction? Did it heal me of past gunshot wounds? Did I find encouragement from others who are fighting their own individual battles?

What I need to do now, according to Polycarp,  is “play the man.” Be a man! Be a Man of God.

Failure awaits, wounds are coming, battle scars will form but the Battle MUST BE FOUGHT. Now, it’s a little bit different though.

How so?

I have a RENEWED desire and direction. Desire that comes because my days and whole life has been BOUGHT with the BLOOD of Jesus. And my Direction is a bit more clear. I clearly know what is wrong with me. If I don’t trust God in healing me, Imma have some major issues to say the least.

This weekend, I really needed the church to be that “Inn” for me. But I know I cannot stay in the Inn forever….